Born dwelling in joy, I soon was lulled to sleep. When I began to awaken, I had forgotten where I was. Sometimes exploring trails marked by others, but always following my own inner guidance, this is my journal of self exploration on the path of returning to joy.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Gaian Tarot Reading 7-1-11 Eclipse: Part 1 of 7

I came across this tarot reading I did last year and decided to post it, since it's relevant to what's happening for me now. I've divided it into separate posts by card, with the introductory intentions in this first part.

I've interspersed comments today about how my understanding has changed in the past year.

I chose to do a Gaian Tarot reading, using the "Predict Your Future by Creating It" spread (described in the deck's companion book). The first and last card are chosen face up from the Major Arcana, and the rest are chosen face down.
My intentions for doing this reading are to gain clarity about my current life situation, and how to proceed to go in the direction I want to go next. 
Before I begin this reading, I am feeling depleted, so depleted that I went to see a doctor. I am tired of feeling tired. I'm tired of feeling that I'm holding myself back. I'm tired of feeling that everything in recent moths requires an extraordinary amount of effort just to get through the day. I'm tired of only feeling good when I'm lying in bed. Where has my energy gone? Am I too fat? Too old? Too much on the wrong track emotionally? Spiritually? 
These are questions on which I hope to gain some insight.
Happily, I've made some progress on this overall. I've been feeling more energy, though I still experience more times of depletion than I want. In general, I'm doing better. The question I want to address is why. By answering that, I'll learn more about what is working well for me.



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