Born dwelling in joy, I soon was lulled to sleep. When I began to awaken, I had forgotten where I was. Sometimes exploring trails marked by others, but always following my own inner guidance, this is my journal of self exploration on the path of returning to joy.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Dream: Under Disneyland

Last night I dreamed I was somehow "under" Disneyland, in a place where the magic is created. I had the impression that being there was rarely allowed, and security people were keeping an eye on us. I was there with someone. I'm not sure who. My daughter, perhaps? I also had the feeling that we were under some kind of big body of water, like a SeaWorld tank?

I think we had entered through a field. It felt like the Midwest. (Alice down the rabbit hole? I don't actually remember entering.)

There were other people, very happy. It seemed this was a special night. We were all making our way to an auditorium. Some kind of ceremony or presentation was going to happen. We entered the auditorium and were seated, ready for the event. Suddenly I heard someone say, "Mrs. Disney is on the move." An older woman was coming down the row of seats in front of me. We were all in awe of her. She passed right in front of me, and appeared happy and confident.

I've no idea right now what any of this means, except the fields might be related to my locavore work.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Gaian Tarot Reading 7-1-11: Part 7 of 7

Card 6 - Outcome I Want
External (18 The Moon)I want confidence in magic and manifesting. Constant, faithful changes. Powerful psychic abilities awakening, trusting my intuition. Keep dream journal; study magic. IMAGINATION. Harmony with waxing and waning of emotions and intuition.
Internal (0 The Seeker)I want to begin my spiritual journey in earnest again. New beginning, traveling light, the butterfly image (liquifying? or taking wing?). Be open to twists and curves in the road. Take a risk! SPIRITUAL QUEST. INNOCENCE/CHILDLIKE WONDER (Sun?). PILGRIMAGE. SIMPLICITY. SPONTANEITY. ADVENTURE. ALPHA & OMEGA. (Omega Institute?) Start with trees (connect underworld, Middle World, Celestial World) and birds (messengers between heaven and earth, FREEDOM).

Gaian Tarot Reading 7-1-11: Part 6 of 7

I had decided at the outset to draw two cards in the 6th card position. One would represent my inner life direction and one for my outer life. Now I decided I'd do that on the 5th card position, too.

Gaian Tarot Reading 7-1-11: Part 5 of 7

Card 4 - Next Step: Elder of Water
"The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell. Don't go back to sleep." --Rumi
Pay attention to dreams (connecting both inner and outer worlds). Seek out wild spots in Nature. Be a listener to be of service to others (peace and calm in tumult). Upon rising bring mysteries of dreams to light of day. In evenings, reflect on day just past to live in state of gratitude. 

Gaian Tarot Reading 7-1-11: Part 4 of 7

Card 3 - Action to Take to Meet the Challenge: Explorer of Earth
Connect deeply with Nature. Be outdoors. STABILITY. EARTH KNOWLEDGE. CONNECTION TO HOME. Spiritual connection through body. Fitness and wholesome diet are best kind of health care.